I love the game. I want to be the best that i possibly can be, But like others i have some limitations. There are some things i'm not that great at among those include:

- A crooked armswing
- getting ahead of transition
-changing balls quick enough
- practicing efficiently enough
- money management

I'd love to be out there every weekend battling somewhere different trying to make it in this crazy game. But the ugly truth is that I'm just not good enough RIGHT NOW. I'm hungry for it. I love the competition. But i have things that need to be worked on. I'm Okay being a larger than average sized fish in a small farm pond for now. But that quickly can change. I constantly work on my game and anyone who knows me. Mom, girlfriend, proprietor, friends in the game know that i am not exaggerating. I spend about as much time in the bowling center between practice and equipment maintenance as i do at my full time job.

I was talking to a friend and teammate during league one night and we were talking about the changes in my game from now, and from 5 years ago when i quit due to pain issues. I stated that i spare better now and seem to be a bit more balanced. I feel like i throw the ball better now. His immediate response was "You struck a whole hell of a lot back then though". I still can strike my fair share. I have the 3rd or 4th highest average in the house i bowl at around 225 and I'm happy with that for the most part. at least for now.

Whether i'm a solid bowler, or a champion card player one constant will always be there. I'm a competitor that is driven by competition. Ive come across people who wanted to win as much as i do (in whatever aspect you want to entertain) But, I've never met anyone who wanted to win MORE than me. I just like to win.

Over the years, and a whole lot recently. I've always been given crap about my armswing. The thing about my armswing is that on the pushaway my right shoulder drops causing the ball and armswing to kind of figure 8 behind me. It gets back on plane rather quickly. It's been very hard to correct because It's not easy to just erase 10+ years of muscle memory. When i'm really working on it, there will be spurts of times where it looks good. But because of how long ive been doing things the "wrong" way. I have no feel for how things the "right" way is supposed to go. First thing) with the way I am, I'm fairly consistent with how ive always done things. secondly, ive made pretty good money with it. It's an issue that I am really self-conscious about. But am really fed up with nothing working. I think its time for me to focus on what works for me and focus on my strengths. After all, Brandon Novak just led one of the WSOB tournaments and leads the PBA World Championship after 32 games with the same issue. Now, I'm not saying that I am on the same level as Brandon. Because i'm not. I'm not close. But i feel i can compete. I'm not someone who will ever give up. When I'm motivated. I wont allow myself to lose. And thanks to some people for waking me up. I'm very motivated right now.